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A Journal Entry From My Injury Recovery

8/7/2015

It’s easier to fix the outside than it is to fix the inside. As a personal trainer I helped people fix their bodies into more fit, healthy, and fabulous objects. I set myself apart from the crowd by being compassionate, and really getting to the root of the weight or stress issue. After befriending each and every client, I became a place of support and therapy – the reason I went to college in the first place.

After years of training people how to fix the outside in a country of obesity, I came to the conclusion the real problems lie within the individual. No matter how many times you hit the gym in a day, that stressor is not going to solve itself. That co-worker is not going to respect you unless you stand up for yourself. That boyfriend is not going to stick around if you’re such a bitch after work at the job you hate. We got deep and worked through some murky emotions with each and every client. Your mother is continuously going to put you down unless you cut her off. Stop trying to prove yourself to the world and simply BE.

Remove that negative voice. You’re the one letting it in.

The gym can be its own meditation. I still crave that bench beneath my ponytail, sweat tickling the middle of my chest as it drips down, and my arms trembling in front of my face. I get it. It’s amazing. The key is that we simply need to be aware of our goals, for inside and out, and find balance. Image is the first thing we see of a person, inside is the last. What if we all went blind for a day, how kind could you be? How would you change your activities and thought patterns?

This sounds like an obvious statement, but the truth of the matter is we are all focused on the wrong things. We’re so keen on making money because we all have a fear of being poor. The media makes us think we need things, but all we need is each other. The marketing of consumerism is insane. The war on women is irrefutable. We fought to get educated, to vote, and then to have all these other equal rights – yet we parade around, act dumb on purpose, and pretend we’re in control. F****ing ridiculous.

This current wave of non-culture is depleting our insides, falsely perfecting and shaping our outsides, as well as removing any hope for change. That’s a scary word. No one wants that. Yet, how happy are you?

Really, stop being complacent. Stop being content. Damn that words aggravates me. Content. F**k your sense of being content; get wild. Get daring. You’re an animal, for Pete’s sake! Get off your ass, and live this one chance you have as the name you hold. Life is eternal, and you will keep receiving the same lessons over again until you learn them. Is this the third boyfriend/girlfriend who has cheated on you? Why didn’t you stop and assess yourself for once, instead of blaming their patterns of behavior? What are your patterns? Why are you seeking pain? Why aren’t you standing up for yourself the first doubt, the first argument? The word why should be in every question.

As a child I got in a lot of trouble for asking why. As adults, we don’t want to face the truth. And as adults, we have the option to deny the truth. We have the option to lie to ourselves, day in and day out, about who we are, what we want, and what we deserve, and why. Every experience, good or bad, can be seen as a positive if you learn from it. If you refuse to learn, change, and evolve, you will get left behind in every compartment you place yourself.

Generation Startup (A Netflix Review)

It was 1pm and I got home from my morning shift as a teacher that started at 430am. [I currently teach Chinese students how to speak English. Since they’re 13 hours ahead of us, I work in the wee hours of the night. I’ve always liked to work in this quiet time.]

I decided to take this midday break to get inspired by a business documentary. I typed in the Netflix search bar “Business,” and this was the first documentary to pop up.

At first I assumed it was a series, filled with different people, brands, and stories, but then when I lost interest in the characters, I checked the runtime: it was in fact a movie.

So I buckeled down and decided to continue listening to this documentary to see what I could get out of it. I was seeking external inspiration because I was exhausted already internally. I have to pay the bills, but if I hadn’t just worked/been awake for the past 9 hours, I may have found some internal energy.

The movie did not inspire me, but it did make me feel a lot happier about the choices I have made. All of the characters in this documentary are college students. They are all under the age of 25 and showing the drive they have. THE PROBLEM is that they are driving toward something, but not towards what they love to do.

They are all driving towards words and ideas like “RICH, SUCCESS, FINANCIALLY STABLE, and FREEDOM, ” yet they continue to find themselves poor, cold, starving, sad, and alone throughout this film. They aren’t connecting with thier product, brand, or culture. They are simply working all hours of the night FOR ANOTHER JOB.

Who cares if the company is just beginning, I thought the idea of a startup was doing something that warms you from the inside? You know, like saving a life or giving people clean water, or changing the food system…

These people were just working their asses off, complaining about their job. Even if they found success, they were still not happy. They’re like “Yep! We did it!” as if they just completed a philosophy final in college. There was no real gratification, love, or tears. It was cold, heartless, and meaningless. I wouldn’t suggest this film to anyone because it is simply un-inspired.

The film was made in the same way the students completed their work: just to get it done; not to do it well, or for a purpose.

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PERSONAL CONNECTION

My grandma always told me, “Find your niche and stick to it.” As a kid, I understood “niche” as the thing I was good at, like talking to my sad friends and making them feel better. As an adult, I find again, that one of my talents is talking to sad (sick) people and helping them feel better. Through trials, failures, and tribulations, (and being strongly led by my current Partner), I have found that who I am is who I want to be.

I used to deny all of the interesting parts of me. All of the things that make me interesting, I bury.

As a teen on myspace, I blogged in this personal fashion daily. Most of the time it was early mornings or late nights, when the energy was cleanest outside and no thoughts or sounds were invading my space. Then, I was convinced by family and friends that I was sharing too much. I was online too much. I was on cam too much. I had too many online friends. Go outside and play.

Yes, this is true. But if I would have stuck to being me, I would now have a 15 years of social media content under my name. Instead, I made and deleted many accounts over the years, emotionally. I never saw myself as a business, but I’ve been it the whole time.

I’ve been capable of creating any life I want, and never gave myself the full commitment to do so.

I would like to inspire everyone to fail, fail, and fail again until they find out who and what they truly want to be in this world. No age is too old. Where does your heart feel most full? Try all of the sports. Listen to all of the music. Explore all of the ideas. Let fear go in the breeze, as a child would when they are discovering.

Stick to it, don’t give a shoot what other people think, and do YOU!

Raw Cannabis for Post Concussion Syndrome

Raw Cannabis for Post Concussion Syndrome

It started with a fall that broke my left zygomatic arch (cheek bone). I was always insecure about my abilities to be a smart, witty person. But now that I had Post Concussion Syndrome, I was nobody. I was nothing.

After reading about Dr. William Courtney’s studies and patient success with raw cannabis juice, I had to try it. I bought a top of the line Aerogarden, some vegan nutrients from Amsterdam that had no heavy metals, and began my journey that would lead down a road to a successful business.

After finally figuring out how to grow cannabis, I began juicing it. I added raw turmeric root on advice from my Ulcerative Colitis doctor from Washington, DC. I also added raw ginger root to the mix for spice, flavor, and to take away my nausea. I was experiencing extreme nausea and lack of appetite due to my anemia from Ulcerative Colitis.

Five minutes was all it took. My eyes lit up. My brain fog cleared. My stomach digested. And I took a deep breath. The life of the raw cannabinoids, curcumins, gingerols, and basil awakened me from a deep slumber. I knew I had something good. I knew the Doctor was right.

Cannabis Sativa in raw form,(such as leaves, buds, stalks, and seeds), that have not been heated or extracted, are rich in acidic cannabinoids.

This means the normal THC and CBD numbers you are looking for will reflect as THCA and CBDA. Look at the image below to see how cannabinoids change over time and with environment.

The amazing thing about acidic cannabinoids is their ability to be soluble in water. This increases the body’s ability to use the cannabinoids by 92%! This means if you drink cannabis juice, or ingest raw whole plant cannabis powder found in Eva’s capsules, your body will be given the opportunity to absorb 98% of your ingested cannabinoids. With a fat soluble tincture or cap, your body will be given a chance of 6-12% total absorption. That means you’re losing up to 92% of your nutrients.

Would you buy a coffee from Starbucks if you had to pour out 94% of it before taking your first sip? So then why waste money on CBD oil tinctures?

Childhood Education: The Next Billion Dollar Industry

This article is an emotional response to Dave Holt’s “How to Fix the US Public School System.”

Education has always been a passion of mine since the school was a safe haven from my hectic home life. Before I was 5, my mom had an emotional PTSD breakdown, and before I was 10 my dad was addicted to cocaine, and the entire time they were both full-blown alcoholics running a household of 4 kids on less than 40grand/year. I had 3 older siblings who didn’t care for my rainbow energy, finding me as the annoying little sister.

My home was a hell unless I was locked in my room, lost in a book. When I was little The Berenstain Bears, How to Give a Mouse a Cookie, and Goosebumps were my best friends. I loved walking to the library and checking out the max number of books to haul home.

I grew up an hour north of Los Angeles California and went to public school until eighth grade. After grade 8, I went to a public charter school once a week to take a test for the next 2.5 years to graduate High School. Once I was 17, I began community college aching for more knowledge and a promise to get out of this wretched small desert town. I graduated from community college with a Regent’s Honor’s Award and went to UC Irvine on a full scholarship. I did it, I got out of that small town and had my life paid for because of my dedication to knowledge. I completed my Bachelor’s degree with Honors and then decided to stop my education because I didn’t want to begin paying for it and going into debt without a promise of a job. I became a personal trainer and found success telling others how to live a healthier lifestyle.

After all of that education, I ended up using my $500 certificate from NASM to make the most money I ever have in my life as a personal trainer in Washington, DC. It taught me that climbing a ladder was not the way to wealth and happiness. Grinding could get you money, but you only have so many hours in a day. The goal is to get your money working for you in such that you’re an owner instead of an operator. My goal was to become a gym owner but a fall down a flight of stairs reset my path. (Read my other blogs for more on that.) Back to education…

Mr. Futurist pushes creativity, freedom of expression, and correct timing of subjects during development. I especially appreciate this sentiment by David, “I also believe the study of philosophy and stretching the mind with some amazing ideas should be part of a 7th and 8th-grade educational curriculum,” because ages 12-14 were the most emotional, hormonal years of my life and I would have appreciated Plato, Nietzsche, and Kant.

I agree with the views of Rudolph Steiner’s Anthroposophic medicine. Wikipedia calls him and his ideas “quackery,” but clearly needs an edit. Here is the scientific article that came out proving one of Steiners theories:

Abstract

In 1932, Bremer of Harvard filmed the blood in the very early embryo circulating in self-propelled mode in spiralling streams before the heart was functioning. Amazingly, he was so impressed with the spiralling nature of the blood flow pattern that he failed to realize that the phenomena before him had demolished the pressure propulsion principle. Earlier in 1920, Steiner, of the Goetheanum in Switzerland had pointed out in lectures to medical doctors that the heart was not a pump forcing inert blood to move with pressure but that the blood was propelled with its own biological momentum, as can be seen in the embryo, and boosts itself with “induced” momenta from the heart. He also stated that the pressure does not cause the blood to circulate but is caused by interrupting the circulation. Experimental corroboration of Steiner’s concepts in the embryo and adult is herein presented. – “THE HEART IS NOT A PUMP: A REFUTATION OF THE PRESSURE PROPULSION PREMISE OF HEART FUNCTION by Dr. Ralph Marinelli, et al.”

The problem with US education is that it trains our minds to be employees, and employees are in the rat race that can never be won. They are training us to become depressed, hopeless individuals, listen to authority, and jump when told to do so. Are we lab rats in a grand experiment and accepting the role, or are we conscious beings looking up at our system and asking, “Why are we living this way?”

2018 has brought Donald Trump, Global Environmental Destruction, and the high likelihood of a nuclear war to destroy Earth. These are all reasons to start rethinking education. Our kids are the future after all, right?

Do you want your child to survive in this hostile world, or do you want your child to be a big part of changing it for the better? It is only a matter of time before the old white dudes controlling this all die out. I’m not planning on having children, so I’m here to support all of the parents who need it.

I’m currently teaching English 8-12 hours a day online to kids in China, on Beijing Time. I make an average of $17/hour. The real money is not in teaching, but owning the business.

They are learning a new language and culture during their Summer break. I don’t know one American kid who is doing anything like this VIPKID program.

I’m seeking app developers and education specialists, teachers and moms, and fellow futurists to create an application that can be spread worldwide to give enlightening, positive education to all children. I’m seeking investors who believe in education through the web, employed on a mass scale, with instant access to classes and a rainbow of teachers.

The app will transcend languages, cultures, and ideas, sharing teacher lessons from all over the world. I’ve always wanted to own a school so that I could give an amazing curriculum. That school will be in the cloud.

If you want to collaborate on this billion dollar education idea, message me today on here or LinkedIn.

Cindy Mi is a hero of mine and I look forward to working in education technology with all of you.

Let’s change the world together, one heart at a time.

Love and Light,
Teacher Nicole

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Defying Disease

I never thought we could cure her. I felt like I wanted to die myself when I heard the news. I thought this was the end to my meaningful existence as a mom. My baby was diagnosed with cancer.

My stomach turned and my ulcer flared. I was sick in bed for weeks, crying and killing myself over this news. I had no hope, and was working in the one industry that should have given me all the hope in the world: cannabis.

She’s an amazing plant. With the power of raw cannabis juice, we healed my baby Mary back to her playful, rambunctious self. Although her lymph nodes still get swollen, her symptoms of serious illness are gone. Now she is a normal aging dog, dealing with Arthritis, picky eating habits, and long trots on the beach.

Mary showed me that cannabis could cure her deadly cancer, and she showed me I could heal myself. With her absolute love for life, she inspires me daily to walk, ride, explore, and make new adventures. Defying disease isn’t just about getting your health back, its about getting your life back.

Health is Happiness.

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Stress and Colitis

Stress can cause flare-ups of ulcerative colitis. Float spas can help.

Stress is a major factor in Ulcerative Colitis.

Obsessive thoughts and anxiety riddle the day.

Each negative thought you have becomes exasperated in your gut, as you feel a punch, stab, pull, and gurgle.

Every worry becomes anxiety.

Lingchi, or death by a thousand cuts, would be a more suitable name for this invisible disease.

One method to release stress is floating. Imagine it, an hour to yourself, no worries, no bills, no kids, no driving, no work, NOTHING. Just you in the womb, giving up and letting go for 60 minutes.

Imagine it, an hour to yourself, no worries, no bills, no kids, no driving, no work, NOTHING. Just you in the womb, giving up and letting go for 60 minutes.

I admit, my first couple of floats were a little off. I was still getting used to the idea and the feeling of bobbing around. But after my third float, my body was relaxed for two days. I felt almost perma-stoned and didn’t have a care in the world. The magnesium in the Epsom salt really got under my skin that time and made me chill the fuck out for once.

Here’s a little Simpon’s Clip to explain the floats. They’re about the same price as a massage at $60/hour and can be found near most cities. Search for one near you today to see if this will help keep you in remission from Ulcerative Colitis, Crohn’s, or another autoimmune disease exasperated by stress.

Gut Health in the Cannabis Industry

iStock_000008690317Small I have noticed a gap in the cannabis industry: Gut Health. There are no budtenders that have been able to help me with my Ulcerative Colitis since 2008. Not a single one.

After a recent flare, I was reminded how helpless and painful it is to have Ulcerative Colitis. You can’t breathe, eat, sleep, or drink water. You begin to die and your insides are bleeding. It seems like its never going to stop. Weeks pass and the world seems to turn into a blur. Your whole life could change if you’re not prepared or have the right support. You could end up jobless, homeless, and in debt because you can’t even lift your head.

Pharmaceuticals, the ER, or any tinctures will not work. The first thing I turned to was vaporizing pure CBD isolate. A huge breath of 0%THC air, that is filled with a medicinal cannabinoid to stop the stomach and digestive seizures. It took away pain, anxiety, and let me get back to sleep for a few hours.

I am here on a mission to help those with IBD, Ulcerative Colitis, Crohn’s Disease, Leaky Gut Syndrome, and other effects of a messed up microbiome. The world is a hostile place baby, and I’m here living in it with you. I want to share whatever helps me so that you can maybe find relief too!

The first thing I did was vaporize CBD Isolate. You can get that privately by emailing me and we can take credit card.

It looks like this white powder, and you can place it into any vaporizer device. It provides instant and radical relief.

The next step, once able to eat food again, is the prevention of more pain. I take 2 capsules per meal of Better Relief, which contain 5mg CBD per capsule, as seen here.

Turmeric, Ginger, and CBD combine to make a powerhouse that heals the ulcers and lowers the gut pain.

For food, I’ve been eating organic gluten-free chicken noodle soup, chicken salad on gluten-free Udi’s white bread, and smoked salmon with a little Kite Hill chive cream cheese. I have also recently added back in white rice cooked in coconut oil.

I’ve been drinking fruit and vegetable juices for additional calories and sticking to spring water. From here, I will slowly add back in foods I can digest that are low in fiber and high in nutrition.

My next post will be a recipe. Until then, leave a comment with your IBD story.

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Chrons/Colitis Healing Naturally

4/17/2016

6 months after starting CBDA

I haven’t had symptoms since this last post above. I’ve been dealing with my stress and being super grateful for my life. This past week I ate a raw salad with kale, baby lettuces, raisins, tomato, and quinoa. My first thoughts were that “I didn’t die! Hooray!” , which I normally would have with my Ulcerative Colitis symptoms. I’ve been juicing 1-3x per week with one or more of the following: cannabis, cannabis buds, home grown lemons, oranges, strawberries, carrots, and other fruits and veggies. I find that liquid nutrients have proven to be the most viable source for nutrition. Juicing, smoothies, high quality whole protein powders, and tinctures have been working wonders.

After taking serious control of my emotions, ego, and pain body I was able to let go of my illness. With the loving support of my boyfriend, dog, and lifestyle, I was able to heal. With daily meditation and constant awareness of my emotions, thoughts, and behaviors, I am able to manage my body into being continuously happy.

Nobody is perfect though. Last week I had a tidbit with my sister and my point of sale system on the same day. It was two things I had been passionate about that both went awry.. My stomach started twinging and I knew right away I was stressing too much internally. I had to manage my thought patterns and emotions. I dosed myself with CBD, tea, soup, meditation, stretching, and peaceful music. I found myself fine the next day. Crisis averted.

I have found that all illness is created first in the mind, and then repeatedly passed into the body. Every illness I have had has been warranted in some sort of way. Once I decided that I want to be radically healthy and happy, illness seems like a blip on the map. A misled thought pattern. An old bad habit.

I will continue to love myself first, treat myself with respect, and heal continuously. Healing isn’t an overnight process, just the same as getting the disease. It took years of pushing down emotions, bottling things up, and starving myself before this ailment came along. They say, “it’s not your fault,” but I truly do believe we have the power of our own health. I’m not a Christian Scientist simply praying for this healing, I’m actively working on my healing each day. Writing this to you is a part of my ego bowing down, saying this is not embarrassing, this is empowering! I have the power to heal every part of myself, inside and out. You do too. Why not get started?

10/19/2015

10 Days of CBD

Dear Public Diary, Healers, and Fellow IBD Sufferers,

It’s been ten days of my CBD regimen of cold-steeped organic olive oil infused with the whole plant herb, the ACDC strain of cannabis.

I have noticed I have less pain and symptoms on my day off. When I have a day of work ahead, I notice waking up with anxiety and feeling the need to unwind immediately. I’m noticing more and more how I create my own illness, and exactly what I need to be doing to take care of myself. The main points are to check in with myself and see how I’m feeling every moment of the day. I’ve increased my meditation into my car rides during work. I find it helpful to remind myself, “Notice how you’re breathing. Now take a deep slow breath.”

I have had some bouts of pain and cramps, but am eating whole foods once again. I have upped my dose to 20 drops 3x/day during work days, and 10 drops 3x/day on Monday, my day off. I’m also taking my turmeric daily, 2 pills, or about 800mg. I have found my THC tolerance to be super low now and if I smoke too much THC-dominant cannabis, I don’t like how I feel. It makes me dizzy and almost drunk. Less is more! I believe this means I’m starting to heal my Endocannabinoid System, but need to do more research.

I am also exercising lightly each day. I got my bike tuned up so I can do some low-impact exercise using my biggest muscles – quad and booty. I’ve lost way too much weight over the past few weeks, and really want to build back some muscle. It’s funny, my historical anorexic Nicole would be absolutely thrilled with my tiny, skinny body. My healthy Nicole, my true self, knows I need to gain a little weight the healthy way – exercise and protein shakes.

I’m feeling better as I write my emotions, sing each day, meditate, medicate, and exercise. Holistic medicine really DOES work. 🙂

Until next time… love and peace to all.

The Inside Snippet – My Invisible Disease

I’ve been taking CBD oil for almost 3 days now and smoking mainly CBD cannabis. Some interesting things have been occurring. Here is your inside snippet:

The ACDC oil has helped reduce my pain and cramps so far. I’ve tried the strain Harlequin and it puts me right to sleep, so I like the ACDC better for all day pain relief.

So far I’m taking 10 drops 2-3x/day, depending on pain. I’m taking 10 drops in the morning, smoking one CBD strain joint, and drinking one green vegetable juice. In midday, between 2-4pm, I’ll take another 10 drops with whatever juice/soup I’ll be ingesting. At night it seems the pain increases as my body and mind gets more tired from the day’s tasks, so last night I took 20 drops of CBD and smoked THC cannabis to reduce pain and get to sleep.

As for other CBD strains, I have been enjoying a strain the farmer called “Tonic” that is 10% CBD and 0.5% or less of THC. It takes away my anxiety and ADD tendencies, increasing my focus without panic. The best part is that I can drive and go in public since it doesn’t alter my “euphoric” center. It reminds me of a light Xanax or anti-anxiety med. It gives me a sense that it’s rewiring my brain because I noticed my emotional reactions to stress have been lessened after smoking it daily, compared to THC creating more emotion, sensitivity, and anxiety. (This is probably why I’m a hermit crab when smoking High THC!)

The “pennywise” strain has made me sleepy and the ACDC makes my body very sleepy, from the high levels of myrcene. So for daily medicating, I really like the Tonic best to smoke and the ACDC oil best for pain.

New Findings:

Finally, at the end of the night, when I get off work past midnight (closing time), I sit down to have my THC cannabis. The first night after smoking and ingesting CBD all day, I passed right out with just one single hit of THC-dominant cannabis. I knew I was exhausted but soon realized the next day, I was super sensitive to THC again! Something has occurred inside of me that has made me very sensitive to THC. I believe it’s the synergistic effect happening, of the cannabinoids activating each other. Since my body hasn’t had this much CBD on a consistent, dosed basis before, the THC hasn’t had a chance to act accordingly.

After smoking one joint of a THC-dominant cannabis strain, I felt almost drunk. I had the spins and felt like gravity had turned up to 20x. This is what happens to me when I have too much THC; I need to lay down in a dark room and not make any effort to speak or move. [That just reminded of the anti-pot girl melted on the couch commercial and the dog is like “What happened to you? We used to play.”]

Cannabis works on a bell curve: too little doesn’t work and too much doesn’t work well medically for a consistent basis. I’m learning and feeling this exact curve and learning my dosing rate. Everyone will have a personal rate of need for cannabinoids depending on your personal deficiency.

Other details of my holistic healing regimen:

I’m enjoying my 21-Day Meditation Challenge with Oprah and Deepak. This is my second challenge with them, and I would highly recommend this type of meditation for beginners. This round is focusing on my belief system and core beliefs: love, self-worth, security, and wholeness. Taking 20 minutes a day for guided, contemplative meditation keeps me focused for most of the day on the mantra. Today was about turning beliefs into actions, as well as focusing on all 4 core beliefs and how I externalize them in my life.

I’m still on a liquid diet and made some potato-parsnip soup today from scratch. I used my vitamix and it came out very smooth and yummy! I really hope I’m not on a liquid diet by Thanksgiving so I can enjoy some sweet potato mash and marshmallows. As for all my other meals, I’m drinking organic green juice by SujaJuice or having a broth/smooth soup. Due to the low calories, I am losing some weight, unfortunately, but know I’ll be healed up and eating very soon once again.

For my exercise, I have been dancing 20-30 minutes per day to 90’s pop songs. Music and dancing really helps me forget about whatever pain I may be in in those moments, and gets my lymphatic system and fluid flowing so I don’t feel so much pain all over. I’m still experiencing random pains from my fibromyalgia and nerve damage, so moving around a little bit each day is a must.

Still taking 2-4oz Aloe Juice and 4-800mg Turmeric Supreme

Best Health To You,

Nicole

My Invisible Disease – Healing with Holistic Medicine

Hello,

My name is Nicole and I have Ulcerative Colitis. It’s an embarrassing disease inflicting my lifestyle each and every day. I’ve been prescribed multiple pharmaceuticals to manage the pain and inflammation, but refuse to take them on account of their side effects. I’ve moved to California to heal holistically and am now able to begin that journey. After finding an organic CBD cannabis farmer, a farmer who focuses on the most medicinal strains of cannabis, I have the ability to start a regimen. From here forward I will document how my daily use of CBD-Rich cannabis manages my pain and inflammation from my UC. I will start by smoking CBD Cannabis daily, as well as ingesting a raw CBD enriched organic olive oil tincture, made by Professor Snook. Unrecorded attempts to keep the inflammation down will include my plan in place:

a very strict low-fiber diet (no raw vegetables, no grains except soft corn and rice)
no dairy
no gluten
low-sugar
No beef or alcohol
Limited to no caffeine
Aloe vera juice daily 2oz
Turmeric taken daily 450mg
Will start juicing cannabis when possible
Daily green juices, smoothies, protein shakes for easy digestion and absorbtion
Daily meditation (20 minutes minimum)
Some type of physical activity 3x/week (Gardening, dancing, walking, stretching, or yoga)

Here is a snippet of my day:
11/6/2015

Upon waking: Felt anxious, had stomach pains and cramps, back pain and torso pain
12pm Medication: Smoked one raw cone of ACDC, 24% CBD, high in myrcene
Feeling after: Limited pain, was able to distract myself from it and meet with the farmer

2pm: Pain comes back, humming and singing to distract from sharp pains
Medication: Smoked 1 bowl of “Tonic” 10% CBD 0% THC. 10 drops ACDC Olive Oil.
Feeling: Calm. Almost sleepy. Focused on task at hand. Hungry, Less pain. Forgot I was in pain.

3:27pm: Slowly eating first meal of pumpkin soup. 1 cup.

Notes on Tonic Strain: Makes very focused on task on hand.

6:00pm Drank half a Suja Protein Shake

6:25pm Pain came back again. Smoked a bowl of ACDC. Feel very sleepy and hungry now. Pain is subsiding.

6:30pm All I want to do is sleep now.

It’s exhausting being sick. I used to say, “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired,” when I had the flu or a cold. But now I have no choice but to manage it, and be well and energized from my good management. UC is an autoimmune disease. It’s simply the body fighting itself for no good reason. I have to make sure to weaken it’s fighting power and restore homeostasis with the cannabinoids. Taking care of myself should be #1. The only reason it’s exhausting and annoying is because I put other things first, such as, well everything.

I feel this way every day:

“Man surprised me most about humanity. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.
Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.”-Dalai Lama

By no means am I trying to sacrifice my health here to work in a holistic health field. I’m starting from a hereditary and “previous life choices” debt in health and must work back to balance. By working in this field, I have the appropriate access to the people and herbs that I need to heal myself. And I plan on sharing my journey and teaching others how to heal themselves as well.

My recreational teenage use of cannabis, my experience as a vegan for 7 years, and my training and nutrition background, have all prepared me to tackle this disease. It is now in my power to find a cure to Ulcerative Colitis and help millions of other sick and helpless people. When the doctor told me there is no way to prevent this and no way to cure it, I had two choices: wallow in pharmaceutical pain until death or manage it holistically and live a higher quality of life. What would you choose?