4/17/2016

6 months after starting CBDA

I haven’t had symptoms since this last post above. I’ve been dealing with my stress and being super grateful for my life. This past week I ate a raw salad with kale, baby lettuces, raisins, tomato, and quinoa. My first thoughts were that “I didn’t die! Hooray!” , which I normally would have with my Ulcerative Colitis symptoms. I’ve been juicing 1-3x per week with one or more of the following: cannabis, cannabis buds, home grown lemons, oranges, strawberries, carrots, and other fruits and veggies. I find that liquid nutrients have proven to be the most viable source for nutrition. Juicing, smoothies, high quality whole protein powders, and tinctures have been working wonders.

After taking serious control of my emotions, ego, and pain body I was able to let go of my illness. With the loving support of my boyfriend, dog, and lifestyle, I was able to heal. With daily meditation and constant awareness of my emotions, thoughts, and behaviors, I am able to manage my body into being continuously happy.

Nobody is perfect though. Last week I had a tidbit with my sister and my point of sale system on the same day. It was two things I had been passionate about that both went awry.. My stomach started twinging and I knew right away I was stressing too much internally. I had to manage my thought patterns and emotions. I dosed myself with CBD, tea, soup, meditation, stretching, and peaceful music. I found myself fine the next day. Crisis averted.

I have found that all illness is created first in the mind, and then repeatedly passed into the body. Every illness I have had has been warranted in some sort of way. Once I decided that I want to be radically healthy and happy, illness seems like a blip on the map. A misled thought pattern. An old bad habit.

I will continue to love myself first, treat myself with respect, and heal continuously. Healing isn’t an overnight process, just the same as getting the disease. It took years of pushing down emotions, bottling things up, and starving myself before this ailment came along. They say, “it’s not your fault,” but I truly do believe we have the power of our own health. I’m not a Christian Scientist simply praying for this healing, I’m actively working on my healing each day. Writing this to you is a part of my ego bowing down, saying this is not embarrassing, this is empowering! I have the power to heal every part of myself, inside and out. You do too. Why not get started?

 

10/19/2015 

10 Days of CBD

Dear Public Diary, Healers, and Fellow IBD Sufferers,

It’s been ten days of my CBD regimen of cold-steeped organic olive oil infused with the whole plant herb, the ACDC strain of cannabis.

I have noticed I have less pain and symptoms on my day off. When I have a day of work ahead, I notice waking up with anxiety and feeling the need to unwind immediately. I’m noticing more and more how I create my own illness, and exactly what I need to be doing to take care of myself. The main points are to check in with myself and see how I’m feeling every moment of the day. I’ve increased my meditation into my car rides during work. I find it helpful to remind myself, “Notice how you’re breathing. Now take a deep slow breath.”

I have had some bouts of pain and cramps, but am eating whole foods once again. I have upped my dose to 20 drops 3x/day during work days, and 10 drops 3x/day on Monday, my day off. I’m also taking my turmeric daily, 2 pills, or about 800mg.  I have found my THC tolerance to be super low now and if I smoke too much THC-dominant cannabis, I don’t like how I feel. It makes me dizzy and almost drunk. Less is more! I believe this means I’m starting to heal my Endocannabinoid System, but need to do more research.

I am also exercising lightly each day. I got my bike tuned up so I can do some low-impact exercise using my biggest muscles – quad and booty. I’ve lost way too much weight over the past few weeks, and really want to build back some muscle. It’s funny, my historical anorexic Nicole would be absolutely thrilled with my tiny, skinny body. My healthy Nicole, my true self, knows I need to gain a little weight the healthy way – exercise and protein shakes.

I’m feeling better as I write my emotions, sing each day, meditate, medicate, and exercise. Holistic medicine really DOES work. 🙂

Until next time… love and peace to all.